"Eu já tô maquiada...."

I'm sorry you met me

Im sorry. 

With all the special people in the world you fell in love with me.

 And I was… not nice. 

I was rude, weird, superficial…. 

But the tricky part is… I saw things I didn’t like in me when I looked at you. I was on mania and you remind me of my depressive days.

I thought to myself… people whom rejected me where never too kind about it, why would I feel so guilty about rejecting you? Maybe it was because I liked you… but wouldn’t admit it in no fucking way to myself.

Im sorry you fell in love with me…

Now I know for a fact that im bipolar. I don’t want to use it as an excuse, but… I’m sorry I hurt your feelings